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The Artist's Way, By Julia Cameron
So I'm reading this book, The Artist's way, A spiritual path to higher creativity and I have decided that because I don't write enough on here, (I have a hand written journal that I use much more often), and because I love to type as well as write, but writing takes longer, this is where I'm going to do my morning pages. It is too hard for me to write three pages of stream of consciousness writing in my journal because I don't always have that much to say. So instead I am going to do this, writing my morning pages on here. I think it'll be more beneficial. The first chapter of the book, or the first activity is really all about affirmations, so I need to figure out some things that I say negative in my life and come up with an opposite remark for those things and make them my affirmations. Here we go,
I never make enough money.
I don't have time to do everything I need to do, let alone what I want to do.
I am always angry, I can't control my anger.
I hate so many people, they bother and intrude in my life!
I'm ruining my kids lives.
I am never going to find enough resources to fix my house so it's livable.
My job is frustrating and I hate going to work.
I don't think I can get off this methadone.
I am really afraid I'm going to fail my psych test.

Ok, I think that is all I can come up with for now. It summarizes up the majority of how I feel. Now let's turn these into positives!!
I make enough money to sustain my life and my needs and I am content and happy with all I have.
I have lots of time to use in every way I need it and I use it wisely, allowing myself to do everything I need to do, and want to do.
I do not let my anger get the best of me, I am a happy and content person and my negativity is dwindling, replaced by an overwhelming feeling of content and optimism.
I do not let people that are negative bother me, when I cannot avoid them I radiate love and compassion, for they are suffering and I understand that.
My kids are beautiful, wise, and kind. I am teaching them love and respect, and they are growing into wonderful individuals, developmentally sound.
My home is sound, I have everything I need, resource wise, to fix and rebuild anything broken in my house.
My job requires great patience and I have limitless amounts to give. I enjoy going to work to be reminded of how much joy there is in helping those in need.
I am tapering from my methadone and I will continue without any troubles until I am free of addiction.
I will have all the knowledge I need to succeed in taking my Human Development test on Wednesday, and I will get a high grade without trouble and anxiety.

Woo, there. That takes a lot I tell you. I'm going to have to go ahead and make copies of this to keep with me so that I can continue telling myself these things. I need to clear my mind of negative thoughts because I am afraid that I am accumulating a lot of bad karma and the things that have been happening to me lately are not good. I think that I am being tested, and I need to succeed. I have to learn forgiveness and discipline in the mind. But I am feeling really good about it now. I meditated on a new mantra this morning. I fumbled a lot, but I had my heart set, I know with time it will become smoother and I am benefiting from it regardless, as long as my heart is in it, I know I will succeed. :)


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