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Crunch Time
It's getting to that point. The end of the semester. I haven't done too bad, but I have so many big projects due soon and I haven't started on any of them. I am afraid that I am not going to be able to get done as much as I'd like.
I haven't worked this week and I am supposed to work at least 8 hours a week to keep my job. On top of that, I only worked four hours the week before because of sickness. I don't want to talk to the scheduler, I am afraid of being hollered at or losing my job. That would be devastating.
On top of all of it I have been so lonely lately. It is really starting to hit me that I have no friends. I have no one to talk to. My grandmother is the only person that I am really close to and enjoy talking to, but it is not the same as having a girlfriend. There are things that I just cannot talk to her about because she will bitch at me and I'll just get myself in trouble. I need a friend. It is just really hard at my age to make friends. I have not met anyone at work that could be a potential friend. I don't want to go to bars to meet friends, I don't drink and I don't want drunk friends. I haven't met anyone at school that I could get close to. Where do 20 some-odd-year-olds meet friends? I don't know. Especially finding someone who is interested in the same things I am, someone who DOESN'T drink, drug, or party, someone halfway intellectual.
I've been really dizzy lately and lightheaded. I've had recurring migraines. Now I'm used to migraines, I get them often, but every day? The last week has been a week of waking up to dizziness and it leading to a migraine, then taking medicine and waking up to do it all over again. My sleep pattern has been crazy. My doctor told me it is all part of my constipation but I don't know... I've gotten migraines before when I went this long without pooping but not dizziness and lightheadedness, and not as often as I've been having them. It's more like one continuing headache that I just get relief from for a short period after I wake up, then it comes back. I don't want to see a doctor for it because they just assume I'm trying to get painkillers and treat me like crap. I am so done with asking doctors for help.
I really need to write more often, I enjoy it. Well I have an online class to get to, so I better hang this up now. Adios muchachos!


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